GirL fr0m the Ocean~

those r some random shots i took when i went out to berbuka with my classmates. it was really fun.

1st thing when me n my sister arrived at home last holiday, my mum took us along with my lil bro to have bfast at McD. glad i brot my Mcd bfast card, so we paid a very reasonable price over some coffees n muffins. even mum was surprised. well, we have more mornings for nasi lemak, roti canai n teh tarik, so y bothered right.

it was mostly like my other typical holiday…baked cookies with sister n so on. i got addicted to Sims 2: Castaway.stayed up until 4 in the morning, with eyes glued on tv screen! ridiculous..well, for me.. even i know i always like such thing: im a huge SURVIVOR fan! but i still dont understand y gayfren could stay awake for a couple of days, skipped shower over computer game!?

hmm. i dont know if its normal to feel happy. overly happy. excited abt life..every day? ]theres the down side of cos, but i try not to let them get into my way!] i believe that life isnt abt being special to people really, but significant. it doesnt matter if u’ve been travelling all over the globe but u remain the same person as u were b4. i dont envy u at all. doesnt matter too if u have every thing u wanted to have, but u make no change even to ur own life. yes, i still dont envy u. im happy to have people around me who r significant to me.[n special too.]

i know im not perfect, but i accept myself uncondtionally. i dont tink im better than anyone else, but i know ive improved myself over years. at least i dont wake up in the middle of the night feel like dying or killing myself. so, im thankful…….

to be stuck at the same place, being bothered by the same thing is pitiful. u dont have to go find happiness, its in there inside u. go dig!

me.

im still happpyyy! to have a reliable online life coach, and gf and many many others. a black dot wont ruin me!!!

i can feel that one day i will just leave everything behind. just like dat. no emotional attachment wutsoever. it may not b easy, but its simple.

i have seen many things to be a part of my future, but somehow, some parts r just blur n i tink i will just leave them blurred too.

i have hope and faith in some things. but im just not sure anymore. i work hard. but i cant work alone.

time will tell.hopefuly.

its been raining this evening.set up such a somber mood. tried to dig down novel but wasnt able to concentrate. i guess this is how u feel when u let the loneliness gets to u. dats y it VERY imprtant to keep urself bz when ur roommates r away for a few days, especially.

im tired of attending classes.and in less than a week, new semester begins. SICKENING. getting a degree is important, yeah, to get the piece of paper, so dat u will get a good job which should be able to support u the whole life. im tired of text books honestly. can we just do something outdoor?

uh..till here

been a looooong time……. 1st thing i’d say is…what a journey ive been thru past few weeks….and years…… and im glad that im starting another chapter of my life with a fresh new start…

im thankful to have frens n family who never fail to support me, to cheerish my days (n nites)..and i cant complain anymore..

i finaly finished reading the dice man by luke rhinehart..wut an amazing story, put me into an unforgetable road trip…

to mr mcdreamy, thanks for introducing me to it. for the advices given. for the directions n supports. for being synical and sarcastic at times. i tink ive finaly begin to trust myself more in making decissions. thanks for making me feel special… im njoying this roller coaster ride……yes i do..

to gayfren, ur an awesome fren.im just glad u were with me thru out this whole journey.and i want u to be there until it ends..hope thats not too much b asked.

to kme,thanks for being a superb girlfren. "we r too pretty we r too smart, to let any bf break us apart". i just remember…..

hmmm.and to those who’ve hurt me, ive no hatred, no anger wutsoever. ur memories r like the ashes in the air, vague n hardly there. hands up, not bcos i surrender, but i wanna walk away, i cant bear being stuck n not going anywhere.anymore. a girl like me got a lot of things to see, to explore, to learn. i cant stand being chained at one place.

after all, i tink the world has been fair enuf. looking on the bright side nana.dats all i can say.

-lil star-

everyone has their tissues stories.its okay, dats how life goes. njoy the roller coaster ride.

most important thing is, u learn from the past. and wuteverthing happened actually make u a better person in the future.

i made my mistake, im sorry to those who r deeply hurt.

-nana the tough banana!-

i tink there’s an escapist in each n everyone of us. u knw, the feeling of wanting to bring out the other side of u, that u dont usually get to show much to people around u.. (okay, only if u get me…….)

–only cunning escapism attracts needy unpredictable suckers.

–only committed escape artist needs unlimited security.

so, u figure!

p.s. these past 3 weeks have been an interesting journey to me. to really get to know myself, to feel special n respected. to feel smart and appreciated. its weird, that, ive been chosen to be a part of this journey. but im thankful enuf for being able to get the good stuff out of it~

y r we still on this when no one is happy.

when everyone is stressed out.

no one feel cared (at least i do).

they say, pay attemtion to wut ppl do, not wut they say.

so, looking at the dids……im so outta here.

dun wanna stuck in this forever.

sleep was never good until these past few days.really.i guess all those efforts r finaly paid off! yay me! n thanks to the weather..been drizzling, makes my nites real cmfortable. and ive never love my duvet as much.

cant wait for tonite.

xoxo