GirL fr0m the Ocean~

well..i really have wrote the song, "now who u’re calling gitch?" but i left it somewhere in my room or maybe i juz lost my file or maybe..i dunno.. i really like it though it’s my 1st time writing sumthing like it (confuse? me too..lol)

hurm..i believe like every other normal gal we’d longing for sum1 when we r down..even we know they couldn’t help much but still we feel better after spill everything..of course to someone who we really trust..

i dun know if this sounds a bit lame to some ppl, but i think the best tink to reduce ur sadness or wutever u call it is by ‘talking’ to god..it’s true.. u just feel the clamness in ur heart..nobody could ever make u feel the same..besides, He’s the only one who could read ur whole mind without u explaining further.. it’s like a magic dat no magician can learn.. if u need to cry, juz cry..nothing could stop u.. in fact, those shivers will make u calm later..

He’s the best listeners ever..there r things that happened to me which make me think He never ignore me..feel so secure..miracle? i dunno.. wut had happen?well, let me just keep ‘em wiv me…He guided me thru those miseries n pains.. and i thank Him for that..

i’m not a good gal, i know..but i’m trying to be one..

Lil_star

To: Nana with luv..

From: someone special..

i carry ur heart wiv me,

i carry it in my heart,

i’m never wivout it,

anywhere i go, u go my dear,

and whenever i stand by only me,

it’s ur doing, my darling..

I fear no fate for u r my fate, my sweet..

I want no world for beautiful, u r my world.

Here’s the deepest secret no one knows,

here’s the root of the root, n the blood of the blood,

and the sky of the sky that she called life..

which grows higher than soul can hope n mind can hide,

it’s the one that keeps the stars apart,

I carry it in my heart..

-E.E Cummings-

(thanks…those words are really sweet n nice)

i wanted to scream out loud,

to let go this miseries, to run away from the crowd..

i wanna go somewhere, coz no one seems to care,

i wanna cry till all the tears run dry….

They come when they need u,

when they r down, when they r drown,

Longing for help even in the middle of the nite,

searching for a fren, looking for a lite…..

When the sun seems to shine,

when the rainbows get up in lines,

they forget of wut u’ve done,

n u feel so left behind….

when it comes to ur turn,

to face the cloudy days all alone.

u’ll wait in the middle of the thread,

for they come to save u, so u won’t be mislead…..

It’s all such a real waste,

they’ll never show up, they’ll never trace,

it’s a part of life dat u have to understand

which people not always offer their hands…..

But dat’s not the reason for u to give up,

u’ve to get back on feet, u’ve to get up,

even by urself u can survive,

toward the next level u’ll always strive….

lil_star

9.48pm 3/9/05

it’s always been a gal’s dream to go:
-dating wiv orlando bloom
-scuba diving wiv paul walker
-shopping wiv ricky ullman
-drinking coffee wiv brad pitt
-driving downtown wiv jared padalecky
-watching movie wiv ashton kutcher
-dancing wiv justin timberlake
-singing wiv jesse mccartney
-sky crusing wiv chad michael murray
-sun bathing wiv colin farrel
n finally talking to neal, a guy who seems to know everything bout ladies..

juz came back frm 10 days sem break..wah, it was all fun, having my cousins around..including the smack down kid, yeah..  went for some shopping.. n my tips when u r out shopping is buy anything dat make u feel sexy.. the satisfactions will always be there..really.

i baked chocolate chip cookies.. (a-must-have-cookies-every-year). wiv my sisters around..pretending like we were on cooking programme on tv, it was really fun..

watch loads of movies…reading as much mags as i could..but the only thing i haven’t got time for is to go swimming..hit the pool.. remembr last year incident, it was noon, spending time wiv my lil bro for the last time at my aunt’s place, suddenly notice a middle-age guy standing just a few meters away, staring at us.. wut did i do? of course get the hell out of it, grabbed my towel n ‘blah’.. phew.. another tips, make sure u have ur family member around to watch ovr u… n dun  really trust the security guard..n dun show too much skins.. (??) no matter how hawt u tink those la senza swim wear would make u look.

laterz